let's round up the evidence and gather up the facts i'm a restless energy and you can't relax met up for the hell of it just to try our luck now it's become evident we're too scared to fuck these are not the circumstances i thought i'd end up in but here i somehow find a decent peace of mind secure in having no idea where i'm going they said you'll never work out you're scatterbrained and hopeless and that you've got no marketable skills but i think i'll do fine cause these two eyes of mine are full of stars and hope and time to kill cause it took so long to grow up it wasn't worth the wait we stood in line for hours just to save the date all my patience has worn off my tolerance grows thin i can't stand the air no more it's wearing down my skin i've been burying myself in sedatives and ether moving east and west but never forward so if i don't get up and prod myself enough i'll just end up right back where we started so let's round up the evidence and tally up the truth i'm an angsty household cat untamed and fireproof left town for the hell of it just to try my luck so if this doesn't work out baby i'm completely fucked

can you take me out of here because i want to take you out of here your body kicked me into gear now i can't control my hormones it's always this time of year there's something in the atmosphere that puts me in positions where i can't control my hormones are you tired of waiting for someone to come and sweep you off your feet well i've got a quick solution all you gotta do is follow me i can absolutely assure you you're not the only one at the convention cause pretty much everyone else here is looking for the same kind of attention after establishing prior consent put on your skin tight cat fursuit and then go find a suitable candidate for an fbm back your ass back up on them you're coming with me room 523 i'll post it in the telegram and leave the hotel room unlocked there's condoms in the bathtub

looks like i'll be ok i'll find me a perfect man someday but until that point i think i'll be just fine guess i'll just improvise but i won't cut back or compromise if you want these pills to fix me make up your fucking mind if you want me to try em out for your attention try em out for the next convention try out the plans you promise always work out fine save us all the extra tension save me an intervention i'd love to stay and listen but i just don't have the time it's really fucking tiring to keep getting put on delay but you won't be retiring there's more money to be made i'm running out of options to control my mental health cause the doctors won't listen and the pills don't help i struggle to explain how i don't feel well and they never hear me out there's not much incentive to fix my brain they just drag it out for the monetary gain they don't care if i'm dying or i go insane it's all the same to them this isn't reality it's all just a game i'm not a human being i'm just a damaged brain if i'm using psychotropics it's not for their perks it's not because i want the high i just want something that works you can take it for the entertainment you can take it for the energy you can take it for personal enjoyment but don't take it from me take a minute to ask yourself where you put your empathy is it in your candy basket or behind your framed degree is it in your summer home your cottage by the bay is it in your cadillac you paid for with my copays you ignored my name criticized my they/them/their so fuck your bloated salary and fuck your bleached white hair

time still flies while my ego's stuck in transit life goes by without a chance to grasp it all my friends wave flags out the windows passing me by while my body's stuck in limbo testing out dependencies waking up to tryptamines if i don't think about it it's never gonna hurt me promised myself that i've never gotta worry kiss me hard and covet me i feel so warm i feel so free store it deep inside of me fill me up with love they're so happy that i'm here they'll wash and cleanse my twenty years simplify erase my fears and take me home to tea it's like i'm falling in love all over again feel your heartbeat against my skin mosh pit hard on lsd pull my strings and make me scream it's more than i had ever dreamed break me through again put your body next to me and i'll reflect your energy i can't tell you what i see but they're very good friends of mine

we barely match i regret promising we'd smash and i don't wanna deal with repercussions after doing the act you're hardly sweet you haven't swept me off my feet and the only thing keeping me attracted to you is that you claim to like me make me yours i guess i'll manage i don't wanna take another step backwards again i was gonna give you the benefit of the doubt but you're not making it easy put my hand below your seatbelt in the front seat of your maxed out mileage beat up car come to a rolling stop now baby and let me get unbuckled before we go too far i used to advocate for my attention it was easy and it worked but they locked me in a frat house and now i'm a fucking introvert so kick your feet up pass out with the light on get yourself a couple pads of paper you can write on you better listen up because this will be on the test don't stress out about it just try to do your best i'm a little bitch about five foot three and there aren't a lot of benefits to taking care of me but if you're desperate and you're decent and you call right now we'll throw in free delivery and decent ass to plow use my heart to your advantage i don't wanna miss out on the action again i was gonna give you the keys to my body but i don't wanna come off easy meet me in the boulevard because i don't want you to see me in the light of day push me past my breaking point cause that seems to be the only way ask yourself is this the way you really wanna find someone to fall in love with we've updated our privacy policy you're facing off face to face with your face in a sea of better looking faces is that fucked up or what so unless you get lucky which you won't you need to find a better way bro how the fuck does bitcoin work i never learned how to love this way i did all my researching alone i don't wanna figure it out i just want relief from all this pent up tension i just wanna get my ban revoked from howlr take me now i swear i'm worth it i thought i was an easy target but i guess i got the demographics wrong every motherfucker in this state wants one thing and one thing only so screw it what the hell i'll play along

my knowledge base of courtship is from horny biker slut so i'm not sure why you're trusting me to help you get your nut i'll give you my lame advice cause i guess that's what friends are for i'll lend you my kama sutra while i'm still alone lying naked on the floor i was more than happy to help you and i'm glad that it worked out great i'm thrilled you've got someone to hold don't be surprised if i call in late it's a matter of time before i start to break i can feel it creeping out of my head the longer you two keep me locked in here the more i want to be dead i can't break the window i can't open the door i can't get inside the trunk but i'll keep my mouth closed and i'll keep my lips shut cause i have no way to get drunk i'm not your fucking wingman baby i'm the one who's taking flight i'm sick of riding shotgun i should be out there in the spotlight so cut the red tape and cut the shit cause i'm done with fucking around stop sucking each other's faces or i'll burn this cheap-ass hostel to the motherfucking ground

it's always bittersweet watching my friends fall in love it starts a chain reaction i don't know the end of the fire in my belly works its way up to my face i don't wanna hurt anyone i love so i popped a pill and got out of that place so i laid down on the roof of her car to see if god would tell me anything i read my tea leaves in the stars and that motherfucker wouldn't tell me anything i don't wanna go down to where the lonely people are i'm worried i'll let this go too far indulge me a moment and light my cigar i know i'm overreacting but why'd you make a perfect boy to punish me filled him up with love and creativity then dropped him hundreds of miles away from me you know i'm not prepared to cope i would crush my arm in a hydraulic press i would gouge out my eyes just to feel his caress as i lay me down to rest the fire burns ever brighter i don't wanna go down to where the lonely people are i'm worried i've let this go too far i can't even look at you any more without that sinking feeling

cut the television so you don't have to think and fuck the politicians who label me a twink but they're not coming back and i'm not going back these days i'm just looking for someone to get me high these days i'm a nonbeliever, i'm too young to die i still wanna make you love me cause i'm lonely and dumb and i'll still try like crazy til my face is numb you're trillions of light years out of my league but i'll still try like crazy it's hard to think someone could love me the same way i do them i feel sadistic looking for someone who's willing to put up with who i am you got a bright-eyed future with a roof on your head and i'm a college fuckup drowning in my bed if you want a solid future don't be misled and risk it with someone like me we swore we'd try to keep it local so we don't get depressed because the signals in our bodies can't be repressed but i'll disappoint someone if i don't address all these self fulfilling prophecies these days i'm just looking for a way to spend the night these days i just cross my fingers it'll be alright it's hard to think someone could love me the same way i do you i'd be elated knowing someone feels that way about me

i'm gonna be completely honest here you make me dumb rock steady when you're near and i'm numb already i can't see clear put your hands in mine i wanna bend you over the garden wall and i'll kiss your lips down the bedroom hall blow my load with you in call just take what you need i wanna bend you over the garden wall and i'll pull your leash to brace your fall we can get real hard and do nothing at all it's all up to you

she likes to cut up snakes and hack them into pieces she throws them out behind the shed well i got a hundred different snakes inside my brain planted by convention roommates to bribe me into giving them some head maybe this is all okay maybe i think this is okay i didn't know i had a sensitive spot on the top of my back maybe you'll make this all okay i'd like to raise the stakes for incremental bidding lord give us this day our daily bread well i got a hypnagogic python in my chest who's tryna rearrange me say your prayers before i'm seeing red i'm in love and i can't get enough of your need to be touched it's one pm we're sleeping in so please don't bother us i'll try to rewind biding my time we'll be departing soon i no longer have my innocence thanks to you i think i like it when you bite my lips i love the noises i can get you to make i can feel you caving in around me maybe if i hold you this way i'll get a better angle so i can get a clearer look at your face you look real cute when you're happy i woke up today and everything was spinning will you love me in the morning if i'm high christmas lights and key cards and scrambled cable pornography didn't even get to say goodbye

next time that we visit i'll meet you halfway at eagle creek an off the grid position where our hearts can be set free and i can finally hold you and i can get to know you all i really wanna learn is how to make you smile i'm not too concerned if that means i have to wait a while we can sleep together with my fingers on your chest i'll be ready whenever we both know what's best baby do you want to see me naked do you want to try on all my clothes let yourself become infatuated there's nobody around to tell you no