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a brief recap
03:03
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let's round up the evidence and gather up the facts
i'm a restless energy and you can't relax
met up for the hell of it just to try our luck
now it's become evident we're too scared to fuck
these are not the circumstances i thought i'd end up in
but here i somehow find a decent peace of mind
secure in having no idea where i'm going
they said you'll never work out
you're scatterbrained and hopeless
and that you've got no marketable skills
but i think i'll do fine
cause these two eyes of mine
are full of stars and hope and time to kill
cause it took so long to grow up
it wasn't worth the wait
we stood in line for hours
just to save the date
all my patience has worn off my tolerance grows thin
i can't stand the air no more it's wearing down my skin
i've been burying myself in sedatives and ether
moving east and west but never forward
so if i don't get up and prod myself enough
i'll just end up right back where we started so
let's round up the evidence and tally up the truth
i'm an angsty household cat untamed and fireproof
left town for the hell of it just to try my luck
so if this doesn't work out baby i'm completely fucked
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the f.b.m.
02:44
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can you take me out of here because i want to take you out of here
your body kicked me into gear now i can't control my hormones
it's always this time of year there's something in the atmosphere
that puts me in positions where i can't control my hormones
are you tired of waiting for someone
to come and sweep you off your feet
well i've got a quick solution
all you gotta do is follow me
i can absolutely assure you you're not the only one at the convention
cause pretty much everyone else here is looking for the same kind of attention
after establishing prior consent put on your skin tight cat fursuit and then
go find a suitable candidate for an fbm
back your ass back up on them
you're coming with me
room 523
i'll post it in the telegram and leave the hotel room unlocked
there's condoms in the bathtub
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comedown
03:41
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looks like i'll be ok i'll find me a perfect man someday
but until that point i think i'll be just fine
guess i'll just improvise but i won't cut back or compromise
if you want these pills to fix me make up your fucking mind if you want me to
try em out for your attention
try em out for the next convention
try out the plans you promise always work out fine
save us all the extra tension
save me an intervention
i'd love to stay and listen but i just don't have the time
it's really fucking tiring
to keep getting put on delay
but you won't be retiring
there's more money to be made
i'm running out of options to control my mental health
cause the doctors won't listen and the pills don't help
i struggle to explain how i don't feel well and they never hear me out
there's not much incentive to fix my brain
they just drag it out for the monetary gain
they don't care if i'm dying or i go insane
it's all the same to them
this isn't reality it's all just a game
i'm not a human being i'm just a damaged brain
if i'm using psychotropics it's not for their perks
it's not because i want the high i just want something that works
you can take it for the entertainment
you can take it for the energy
you can take it for personal enjoyment
but don't take it from me
take a minute to ask yourself where you put your empathy
is it in your candy basket or behind your framed degree
is it in your summer home your cottage by the bay
is it in your cadillac you paid for with my copays
you ignored my name criticized my they/them/their
so fuck your bloated salary and fuck your bleached white hair
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the perks
03:27
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time still flies while my ego's stuck in transit
life goes by without a chance to grasp it
all my friends wave flags out the windows
passing me by while my body's stuck in limbo
testing out dependencies
waking up to tryptamines
if i don't think about it it's never gonna hurt me
promised myself that i've never gotta worry
kiss me hard and covet me
i feel so warm i feel so free
store it deep inside of me
fill me up with love
they're so happy that i'm here
they'll wash and cleanse my twenty years
simplify erase my fears
and take me home to tea
it's like i'm falling in love all over again
feel your heartbeat against my skin
mosh pit hard on lsd
pull my strings and make me scream
it's more than i had ever dreamed
break me through again
put your body next to me
and i'll reflect your energy
i can't tell you what i see but they're very good friends of mine
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we barely match
i regret promising we'd smash
and i don't wanna deal with repercussions after doing the act
you're hardly sweet
you haven't swept me off my feet
and the only thing keeping me attracted to you is that you claim to like me
make me yours i guess i'll manage
i don't wanna take another step backwards again
i was gonna give you the benefit of the doubt
but you're not making it easy
put my hand below your seatbelt
in the front seat of your maxed out mileage beat up car
come to a rolling stop now baby
and let me get unbuckled before we go too far
i used to advocate for my attention it was easy and it worked
but they locked me in a frat house and now i'm a fucking introvert
so kick your feet up pass out with the light on
get yourself a couple pads of paper you can write on
you better listen up because this will be on the test
don't stress out about it just try to do your best
i'm a little bitch about five foot three
and there aren't a lot of benefits to taking care of me
but if you're desperate and you're decent and you call right now
we'll throw in free delivery and decent ass to plow
use my heart to your advantage
i don't wanna miss out on the action again
i was gonna give you the keys to my body
but i don't wanna come off easy
meet me in the boulevard because
i don't want you to see me in the light of day
push me past my breaking point
cause that seems to be the only way
ask yourself is this the way you really wanna find someone to fall in love with
we've updated our privacy policy
you're facing off face to face with your face in a sea of better looking faces
is that fucked up or what
so unless you get lucky which you won't
you need to find a better way
bro how the fuck does bitcoin work
i never learned how to love this way
i did all my researching alone
i don't wanna figure it out i just want relief from all this pent up tension
i just wanna get my ban revoked from howlr
take me now i swear i'm worth it
i thought i was an easy target but
i guess i got the demographics wrong
every motherfucker in this state
wants one thing and one thing only
so screw it what the hell i'll play along
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6. |
wingman
03:36
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my knowledge base of courtship is from horny biker slut
so i'm not sure why you're trusting me to help you get your nut
i'll give you my lame advice cause i guess that's what friends are for
i'll lend you my kama sutra while i'm still alone lying naked on the floor
i was more than happy to help you
and i'm glad that it worked out great
i'm thrilled you've got someone to hold
don't be surprised if i call in late
it's a matter of time before i start to break i can feel it creeping out of my head
the longer you two keep me locked in here the more i want to be dead
i can't break the window i can't open the door i can't get inside the trunk
but i'll keep my mouth closed and i'll keep my lips shut cause i have no way to get drunk
i'm not your fucking wingman baby i'm the one who's taking flight
i'm sick of riding shotgun i should be out there in the spotlight
so cut the red tape and cut the shit cause i'm done with fucking around
stop sucking each other's faces or i'll burn this cheap-ass hostel to the motherfucking ground
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7. |
late night ride
03:53
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it's always bittersweet watching my friends fall in love
it starts a chain reaction i don't know the end of
the fire in my belly works its way up to my face
i don't wanna hurt anyone i love so i popped a pill and got out of that place
so i laid down on the roof of her car to see if god would tell me anything
i read my tea leaves in the stars and that motherfucker wouldn't tell me anything
i don't wanna go down to where the lonely people are
i'm worried i'll let this go too far
indulge me a moment and light my cigar
i know i'm overreacting
but why'd you make a perfect boy to punish me
filled him up with love and creativity
then dropped him hundreds of miles away from me
you know i'm not prepared to cope
i would crush my arm in a hydraulic press
i would gouge out my eyes just to feel his caress
as i lay me down to rest
the fire burns ever brighter
i don't wanna go down to where the lonely people are
i'm worried i've let this go too far
i can't even look at you any more
without that sinking feeling
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nonbelievers
03:53
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cut the television so you don't have to think
and fuck the politicians who label me a twink
but they're not coming back
and i'm not going back
these days i'm just looking for someone to get me high
these days i'm a nonbeliever, i'm too young to die
i still wanna make you love me cause i'm lonely and dumb
and i'll still try like crazy til my face is numb
you're trillions of light years out of my league
but i'll still try like crazy
it's hard to think someone could love me the same way i do them
i feel sadistic looking for someone who's willing to put up with who i am
you got a bright-eyed future with a roof on your head
and i'm a college fuckup drowning in my bed
if you want a solid future don't be misled
and risk it with someone like me
we swore we'd try to keep it local so we don't get depressed
because the signals in our bodies can't be repressed
but i'll disappoint someone if i don't address
all these self fulfilling prophecies
these days i'm just looking for a way to spend the night
these days i just cross my fingers it'll be alright
it's hard to think someone could love me the same way i do you
i'd be elated knowing someone feels that way about me
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9. |
hi!
02:02
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i'm gonna be completely honest here
you make me dumb rock steady when you're near
and i'm numb already i can't see clear
put your hands in mine
i wanna bend you over the garden wall
and i'll kiss your lips down the bedroom hall
blow my load with you in call
just take what you need
i wanna bend you over the garden wall
and i'll pull your leash to brace your fall
we can get real hard and do nothing at all
it's all up to you
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10. |
snakes
02:54
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she likes to cut up snakes and hack them into pieces
she throws them out behind the shed
well i got a hundred different snakes inside my brain
planted by convention roommates
to bribe me into giving them some head
maybe this is all okay
maybe i think this is okay
i didn't know i had a sensitive spot on the top of my back
maybe you'll make this all okay
i'd like to raise the stakes for incremental bidding
lord give us this day our daily bread
well i got a hypnagogic python in my chest
who's tryna rearrange me
say your prayers before i'm seeing red
i'm in love and i can't get enough of your need to be touched
it's one pm we're sleeping in so please don't bother us
i'll try to rewind biding my time we'll be departing soon
i no longer have my innocence thanks to you
i think i like it when you bite my lips
i love the noises i can get you to make
i can feel you caving in around me
maybe if i hold you this way
i'll get a better angle so i can get a clearer look at your face
you look real cute when you're happy
i woke up today and everything was spinning
will you love me in the morning if i'm high
christmas lights and key cards and scrambled cable pornography
didn't even get to say goodbye
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11. |
long distance call
02:37
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next time that we visit i'll meet you halfway at eagle creek
an off the grid position where our hearts can be set free
and i can finally hold you
and i can get to know you
all i really wanna learn is how to make you smile
i'm not too concerned if that means i have to wait a while
we can sleep together with my fingers on your chest
i'll be ready whenever we both know what's best
baby do you want to see me naked
do you want to try on all my clothes
let yourself become infatuated
there's nobody around to tell you no
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