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ninelives
03:38
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they forgot to feed the cat for 7000 days
so now i'm howling for attention until someone comes my way
i'm starving here i'm asking for help and no one will give me directions
what do i have to do around here to get some basic human affection
i don't pretend to know what i'm doing here i'm just a dumb cat with a laptop
but if you think it was a bad idea to tape a dumbbell to the gas
go suck a dick and kiss my ass take a cough drop
cause i'm doing fine
i'm doing good
i'm doing better than i should
i'm not giving up
i'm giving in
it's for my own good
do you mean to tell me we could have been fucking this whole time
and now you're sick of waiting and you're leaving me behind
well fuck you too and fuck your bad vibes you're not gonna spoil my fun
cause i've still got my ninelives and you're stuck with only one
cause i'm just another desperate faggot and i look kinda cute if you squint your eyes
and i've really got a thing for cute broad-shouldered furry guys
i'm young i'm dumb i'm full of cum and i'm reasonably sized
so write or text or send a note and i'll get between your
i'm doing fine
i'm doing good
i'm doing better than i probably should
i'm giving up
i'm giving in
i know it's kinda forward but eventually it's gonna be for my own good
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hazybrained
02:59
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you got a body like a cigarette dude
i want your smoke inside of me
i can sense your instincts i'm exactly what you need
well i got 15 minutes
and you look like you could really use a break
just give me the signal and i'll be yours to take
i think i'm about to do something stupid
but oh god i hope the short term pleasure's worth it
well let's try this again
what's the matter with a little indulgence now and then
i can get what i want if i flaunt some confidence
we all want the same thing anyway
so riddle me this
what's the point in waiting for the perfect hominy grits
why not jump the gun if you're ready to blow
fuck taking it slow
bleeding out of my face used to be a bad thing
but now it's indicative of imminent sex
i'm alright i'm okay
i might be getting way ahead of myself but
i think i wanna fuck around for just a little bit
a little debauchery could be the cure for
my itchy trigger finger come pfc
i missed the class on horny decision making
if you flip my trigger then the blood will start to gush
but ain't that why we play this game to get that easy rush
i can feel you tremble as i'm picking up the speed
grind your hips and pull me back and give me what i need
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soyboy
02:01
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i think i'm sensing a subtle unease
something's not right and it's unclear to me
if i'm fucked up or there's more deeper down
or if i spend too much time thinking aloud
but when there's a split between women and men
i've got no idea where i'm supposed to fit in
why do you get so fucking annoyed
when i say i'm not a girl or a boy
i'm a motherfucking they them their
if you don't like it then i don't care
why don't you mind your own affairs
it's not that hard
i don't fit inside your binary
sometimes that's just how it be
why don't you do you and i'll do me
and i'll see you later
when i move out things are gonna get better
my deadname is not who i am any more
give me some nourishment pass me a beer
and promise that things will get better
don't freak out don't lose your shit
i'll be fine just roll with it
there's no real reason why i'm like this
you'll have to accept that at some point
maybe i played with the wrong type of toys
maybe i ate an abundance of soy
what really matters is i'm not a boy
so fuck you and i rest my case
i don't need anyone holding me down
as you can clearly see i'm still kicking around
don't you see all i'm tryna do is live as authentically as i can
so cut me some slack and give me a drink and just let me be who i am
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lonesome
03:38
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i think you can start to see
my self fulfilling prophecies
haven't pushed me too far down the drain
i'd still label myself a wreck
but maybe not a nervous wreck
i'm grabbing ahold of my brain
well the decade-older furry guy who said i was his type of guy
is working down at cricket wireless
i got a job that i don't hate and i've set up a couple dates
where i could end up undressed
the flowers are about to bloom and i think that i might be too
i've got stars in my eyes
as i've said a thousand times my doctor's said a thousand times
i just need to give it time
i am 20 years old
i am still in my prime
i got a couple weeks left before i run out of time
i could choose to invest in a college degree
there's a safer life out there but it's not for me
this cost me like 20 dollars
i can choke you with this collar
i'm outrageous i'm facetious
if you've got a decent
i just want some slutty clothes
to match the lifestyle i'm promoting
text me in a couple minutes if you wanna
all these personal vendettas
i've got on my gay agenda
i don't care enough to keep your bullshit on my mind
i'm here to degenerate your nonexistent master race
so while you nazis whine i'll be out loving my life
i don't wanna leave this earth before i see
all i can experience until i'm ready to die
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recompiler
03:27
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the event horizon starts to glow
with every moment getting much more slow
it's a matter of ifs and buts and wheres and whens
understanding that you've reached the end
and the information that you've lost is irrecoverable
a mess of zeroes and ones
on the surface of a supermassive black hole
it's best to take preventative measures
than to regret your loss
you won't realize you need it
until it's already gone
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comforter
03:00
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your energy inspires me in spite of what i wanted to say
though you're still not what i'm looking for when i'm gay
every second week of the month i check my phone for any bites
but all available positions have swiped right
boys like you aren't gonna be a dime a dozen
so i might as well get it while i can
prednisone and stimuli develop in my age
fueling reappraisals of my senses
neurologic pathways are beginning to branch out
i no longer require innocence
girls like you weren't gonna be my choice of comfort
but i might as well try it if i can
while i can
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sleepyhead
04:12
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living in a mason jar
eating gluten free
feel the waves of drowsiness
washing over me
we can take the interstate
in your family car
camp out on sebago lake
sleep beneath the stars
what page were we on again
what chapter are we on
it's so warm and comfortable here
i don't wanna get up
i find it easy to fantasize
lying next to you
when i romanticise our current situation
it feels nice to say that things will get better
but it feels pretty good right now as it is
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safeguard 1
01:49
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now there's something missing
that wasn't there before
and i'm starting to feel empty
but i don't know what for
and you don't owe me anything
i know it's only fair
but it doesn't fill the void that you left there
there aren't many days i'm not thinking about you
and i hope that doesn't change
but my body's aching and my legs are shaking
and my innocence is quickly fading
you've tangled yourself in my barbed wire
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safeguard 2
02:52
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me i am your dragon
i'll save you from the storm
i'll wrap my wings around you
to keep you safe and warm
and me i am your guardian
i'm here to hold you tight
my job is to protect you
so you don't have to fight
hold me
tell me that you're mine
touch me
we'll turn out just fine
i know the water's rough ahead
as long as you hold on we'll be fine
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exorcism
03:22
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every time that i enter this room
and try to get some rest
i feel something come over me
and as i close my eyes and drift to sleep
i am possessed
by the essence of some ancient deity
i hear voices in my head
they're always screaming after me
i can't get outside my bed
it's set to be the death of me
we always knew that my time to go was approaching soon
but now that it's here it hurts
we always knew that fellatio was important to them
but whenever we try it hurts
good lord it's taking over me
i can feel it coursing through my veins
i've never given in so easily
i've turned on a new part of my brain
i'll take on a new identity
move somewhere warm and sleep around
i'll escort my body where i please
so i guess i'll be seeing you around
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